Thursday, May 10, 2012

The Wisdom of a Fortune Cookie

I've come to the conclusion that I am a big heap of indecisive, fast paced, creative mess of a gal.  There is so much I want to do right now that it's impossible to fit it all into my life at this moment.  I want to be able to slow down and appreciate each  moment, which is a Buddhist daily goal I try hard to grasp.
I always hated the question of "What do you want to be when you grow up?"    Well, I want to be a million things.  Why do I have to choose one?  And, in the moments of today I am more than one.  I am more than two.  I am more than three.  My curiosity and interests get the best of me and as much as I try to sit peacefully for a moment, my mind races full speed ahead of ideas and what ifs.  Nag, nag, nag.  A piece of writing that is cramped in my head that I must get out to give space to something else to develop.  The 15 things that are wrong with the current event I'm promoting and what I need to do to fix them.  Ideas of new activities I can do with my son.  People I need to sit down and have a drink with (and I have been making that happen, which I love!).  The yoga mat I ran to a month or so ago has gotten dusty in the corner and I'm kicking myself for that.  I did feel so much more centered during those weeks of commitment.  
Breathe.  Chill out.  Not all of it may ever get done, or develop into something great.  
I want to welcome hot, slow summer days that await ahead.  I guess for myself that is going to be a challenge to get to, but definitely worth trying.

I need to follow the advice of the ol' Fortune Cookie wisdom that I recently received...

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